June 20, 2012

I have the most awesome guy

I'm talking about the sportsman.

I recently challenged my guy to get ripped. Now don't get me wrong .
He is a big guy. With BIG muscles .
He just isn't ripped.
I want him to have the same drive as me. The desire to be better.

And guess what?
He said, YES!!!!

Isn't that cool.

My guy is pretty laid back.
He's fit. He's healthy. For him
That's enough .
But to be honest
It's not enough for me.
I work hard for my body.
I want him to do it too.
I look at all these men in the gym every day. Alot the same age as my guy.
But they look awesome.
It's frustrating. Cause I know my guy has the potential to be huge and ripped.
I plan to do before and after photos.
For sure.
Can't wait.
I get your super freakin excited to
Right. Ha ha
It makes me wet just thinking about it.
I know. I'm "special".


Everyone wants to know

I'm super popular, don't you know.
Ha ha

So much so that everyone is curious about my blog.
It's the hot topic.

Not sure why. Honest.
Havent a freakin clue.

But it is.

Especially since this new one is very tame compared to my other ones.

So why the interest ???

Why do these people care. What I'm writing about. Or that I even have a blog.
Do they really think I would write about them?
Is that what sparks the curiosity?
Is it the pictures of my fat wiener?
Must be. Silly people.

So I show some skin now and again. Whoopee!!!!
Is that what makes them wanna read?
I mean come on,
You can see skin anywhere.
Porn for that matter.
So why me?


June 19, 2012

Wow . No Holy shit. Is all I could say

Everyone knows I'm not " normal". Right.


So recently I received some news.
Shocking. At the time.
I'm dealing with it better now.
Initially I was blind sided.
I mean it is the soccerboys senior year.
We have lots going. And school hasn't even started yet.
And there is the word
I know I know it's not about me
I was not feeling old , even with the soccerboy being a senior.
Now. I just don't know.
I know I don't want to be called
"grandma". I don't feel like one.
So the cats out of the bag.
My tattoo girl is gonna have a baby.
I am excited. Really.
And I will be very involved. Well as involved as she wants me to be.
Technically no one knows yet.
It's a secret still.
But soon I will be sharing it with everyone.
But I'm really gonna have to come up with a better name for my role I will play.
So for now everyone keep this on the down low. Ok
More exciting info coming soon.
And well of course photos.


June 1, 2012

Newlywed show you ROCK

Recently the sportsman and I were watchin the newlywed show. ( the new one)

( yes we like to see how many of the questions we can get right. After being married for 10 years)
Surprisingly we get most right.
One of the questions was.......

For the men. How many days a week does your wife's bras and panties match?
Interesting question.
I'm pretty sure for me, the answer is
ONE. That is black on black.

So it got me to thinking , shit . I need some new stuff.

So last weekend when the sportsman was out playing golf.
I went shopping.
Since anyone who knows us, knows the sportsman is "tight" with money.
It stresses him out.
So I waited till he was out of town.
Thinking that after the fact, once he sees how sexy they look he won't be as upset.
It's not like I was gonna spend a shit load or anything on undies.
Plus it's important to spice shit up. No?
Besides I need new panties to show off
All my newly defined muscles.
Right? Yes!!!!
Lots of awesome colors that show off my tan.
You would be proud. I only bought five pairs.
And I think they look pretty good.
Here you can judge for yourself.
Awesome right?
Thank you newlywed show.
It's because of you, that I got some new shit.


Are we In or are we Out?

First I wanted to throw out there real quick.
I'm thinking about quitting. Blogging.
So if there is a n y o n e
Out there who actually reads this shit
And wants me to continue
You need to come forward. Speak up.
Or I'm just gonna shit can this blog.all together.

So now thats out there.
I wanted to talk about something important.
And as I recently had a conversation with the soccerboy.
I totally get, what's important to one might not be to another.
If you don't know what I'm about to say
How can you decide the level of importance before you fucking write me off????
Can I say at 17 kids can be real shits!!!!

Moving on.
Is what's important to me. Music does not determine my mood.
But depending on my mood will help me decide what genre I listen to for the day.
And I listen to music from the time I get up till the time I go to bed.

Like right now, as u type I'm listening to some awesome 70's music.
Takes me back to my childhood.

Don't try and figure my age off that.
My parents were big in classic rock when I was younger. Ha ha

Now as much as I love music, and all the traveling and what not to see bands that the sportsman and I do together. I'm kinda tired of it.
They are never just one band. It's always a whole day event. It wears me out.
I did not go to the big rock concert this year with him. Even though it was the 20th anniversary for this particular festival. Due to the colder weather.
The sportsman was very upset. Even waited till the last minute hoping I would go before he sold my ticket.
I just wasn't going to have a repeat of last year.
Even though a bunch of my fav's were going to be there.

It's whatever.

So music is important.
Which is why on my "other" blog I used to do the band of the week post.
It was cool cause it gave me a chance to learn more about different bands that I liked. I feel like it makes the music better when listening to their songs of you know more about them.
( but then I got too busy to look stuff up and the sportsman got mad cause I was spending too much time on my computer)
So I haven't been able to do that for awhile.
Maybe that's something I'll have to start up again.

Ok so I'm gonna go. Maybe I'll be back
Maybe I won't
Just depends on if there is any reason
I should come back.
So I'm putting it in YOUR lap now.
If you want to here more shit that spills out of my mouth.
Let me know.


May 11, 2012

Watch out, sportsman has a smart phone now

So yesterday I get an email from the sportsman. He says I got a new phone ( his work pays for his).
He says I'm trying to setup my email now. I'm gonna send you a text text.
Ummmm, ok.
I wasn't aware he was getting a new phone. I don't remember everything
But I would remember if he said he was getting a new freakin phone.
So I ask the sportsman, what kind did u get?
He says, a HTC. Smart phone.
Well well
All this is really no big deal.
Is it.
So I get home and he's all messing with it. That's cool it's new. Prev he had a black berry.
Until he hollars down the hall at me, whats your user name. I'm thinking what the fuck do u need my user name for? Cause dude I have like 4 different email acct's and user names.
He hollars back. He's setting up words with friends. Geezum
Then I hear him taking to himself about how he's gonna add him
Some angry birds and some other stuff.
Again not a big deal. Kinda funny actually. The sportsman has never been big about technology.
He doesn't even have a FB account.
Just not so sure I want him having a smart phone.
It leads to so many other things. It's easy to get out of control.
You know. Wink wink

I'm hoping that he will put it aside and like other things not be a big deal to him. I mean seriously when we go out or when he goes to the store , he never even brings his damn phone.
It's just his excitement gave me goosebumps of what might be to come.

Maybe I'm worrying for nothing. We will see.


May 10, 2012

Well I did not die........

Well I'm back!!! Did u miss me? We're your worried, that I wasn't coming back?
Well I was.
Here I am.
And almost like brand new.
The horrific surgery is over.
I survived.
No need for I told you so's , from those of you who assured me I would indeed
Not die.
I pulled threw with flying colors ( whatever that means).
I was feeling good enough to participate in the warrior dash on Saturday.
Even though it was 90 plus outside that day, I did really well.
I did all the obstacles .
However it did take me an hour to complete. And a few water breaks. And well some mud.
But it's all good.
I had a great time.
As of Sunday I have never felt better.
No more stress of worrying.
No more races to worry about.
Just back to my normal routine .
I honestly have not been happier in a long time.
Now I wish I had done this three years ago.
But you can't live life on should haves
. All I can do is go from here.
Onward and upward right.
Hell yes!!!

Not sure if I'll share any warrior photos of me doing the actual course
I look like a dork jumping over the fire.
But I suppose I can share a couple of
"after " photos of the sportsman and I.

Good times.


April 29, 2012

Everything's a blur

So in the last week or so, my body's been pretty messed up. My mind never shuts off with worry. My stomach has been so jacked up. One would think I've lost ten pounds just shitting.
For real. Who shits that much?
Smells like a sewer up in here.
My nerves are totally on edge.
Originally I was worried about my First 5k, then my iron issues and cold, then the next 5k and now my up coming surgery.
I haven't been sleeping well. And when u do I dream about off the wall shit.
Tryin to pass the time and not think about things. I've already watched all my recorded dvr stuff.
I've read all my books on my kindle.
I've spent as much time as possible at the damn gym.
I don't know what else to do .
Short of turning my mind off .
Everyone says don't worry. You can do it.
Or it's a routine surgery you'll be fine.
Right . Wink wink.

Kind words aren't helping.
All I hear is blah blah blah
I'm not ready to die
Just yet.
But having lupus makes it all to real for me.

Sorry I wasn't going to talk about this
But it has completely consumed my mind.

Right now I'm
Going to try and lay down and chill.
If that's possible. Someone tell my heart it can slow down now.


April 27, 2012

Reality Check

The count down is on.
The next 5k race is this Sunday.
The surgery is this Monday.
I'm feeling better. The colds almost completely gone.
I feel awesome about running this time.
Other than the weather will be chilly.
The sportsman doesn't think I should run. Due to the fact that I can't have surgery if I'm sick.
I get it. But I wanna run too.
We also had a "talk" last night.
Soooooo freaking d o n e with running.
I neeed/ want to get back to lifting.
That is where my true passion is.
We have done too much damn running .
Not enough lifting lately.
This. Started an argument.
Words were said.
Tempers flew. Ok I became a potty mouth.
Once again our goals are different .
He is ok with how he looks. He just wants to maintain.
He doesn't care about looking better.
On the other hand am freakin driven. To be better.
I want to look like I work out.
Not just lean. That. Is. Not. Good enough.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
But I'm not seeing results.
I ask the sportsman. What do I need to do??
His reply??? Of course is blind freakin love.
He thinks I already look great.
Um, hello!!!!!
That's not what I asked .
I need to know. Do I need to change my diet? Do I need to change my workout? Is it all the running?
Geezum man. Help me out here.
His reply again, he's not a body builder
Therefore he doesn't know.
Well hell. Then freakin look it up.
I mean seriously he looks and researches everything else.
Work with me here.
Yes people he does know I'm crazy obsessed.
But he married me for good and bad.
So back to my count downs.
I had to call and make payment arrangements for my bill for surgery cause I'm not independently wealthy.
I asked the lady if I were to die during surgery does the sportsman still have to pay. I think I caught her off guard. Cause there was dead silence on the end of the line. Ha ha.

Think I was joking? Not a chance. I was dead fucking serious.

So now u know. You won't be hearing from me for a couple of days.
Well unless I do die. Then you won't hear from
Me at all. Now that's fucking funny. No?


April 26, 2012


I visited with a gf from my gym this am. She recently entered in the womens body building competition .
She did a kick ass job. She looks amazing.
So after my run I stopped in to chit chat with my gym "friend". To tell her just that . Everyone needs their ego stroked once in awhile.
While I was standing there, I really looked at her body. And it is amazing.
It made me decide instantly that after my last run I've got to get back to my lifting. No more runs. I feel alot more comfortable lifting weights.
So that's what I'm
Doing. Going full on. Back to lifting.
I'm more than driven to succeed.
Determined to be freakin ripped.
I can't do that with all the running.
Not that I look bad now. But I want to look better. More defined.
Yes I'm crazy obsessed. I know it.
You don't have to say it.

I need a cigarette

It felt so good i almost fell asleep. This is a true story people.

I never got it in movies when it showed people smoking a cigarette after sex.

I mean come on, I've had good sex and awesome orgasms before
And never felt the need to have a "smoke" after.
Besides the fact I've never smoked in my life. So I just did not see the appeal

Ok so where was I? Yes
The other morning I was in the mans room
Hangin out. Ha ha
No really it's my place to go.....
Take a break.
Ok so it wasn't a " break".
I actually was in a hurry.
Not much time in the early am to get off.
And this particular morning I really needed IT b a d !!!!

It had been awhile. Which is a damn shame.
And maybe that's why this one was do freakin good.
But it was the most intense one I've had in a long time. I worked really hard to get it.
It was so damn good that I needed a nap.
And that was when I realized why those people in the movies felt they needed a smoke after.
Now I totally freakin get it.
Is it this way for everyone?
Have I been missing out this whole time? I've been shafted some how I can feel it.
Anyone? Is this a girl thing? A guy thing?

April 24, 2012


What does that word mean?
I found this really funny post on FB.
I'll share it with you.
But really. I hear people talk all the time about them. No I'm not talking about swinging or swingers.

I'm taking two guys and a girl.
I've thought about it alot.
And I've seriously considered it.
I just don't know. If I could do it.
I'm pretty self conscious.
It's different to post photos of yourself but to have some one see u in person
Hmmmm not so sure about that.

And I'm so picky
I don't know if I could find two guys worthy.
I ment one guy
Cause of course the other one would be the sportsman . Duh
That would be silly. To not have the sportsman participate . Right.
Ha ha

Soooo anyways it's still something I'm considering. It's just been put on the back burner. For now.


Corporate challenge

That should say it all. No?
Does your company participate in this?
In my area my company does.
It's a big deal.

Very competitive.
So I decided I would sign up.
Of course there are try outs.
Yes let's add some additional freaking stress to my already monster load.
Why the hell not. What could it possibly hurt ? Right.

So where was I? Yes, I signed up.
So I've been asked to submit my weight and max bench press weight.
So I ask the sportsman. Cause we have been practicing this since I decided to sign up.
I had no idea all the specifics. In order for the lift to count.
So I ask the sportsman realistically what should I put down . For my max
Amount. His reply, " 110lbs".
What the fuck really?
Are you sure? Cause h e l l o!!!! I have to really be able to lift that. There will be try outs.
Anyways he assures me that I can do it.
Of course that's his answer. ( for everything)
Just like when i asked him if he was sure I should do the warrior dash obstacle course.
I guess you also get extra points or something if you can bench your own weight. Ummmm, that's not gonna happen. I weight 123lbs. Benching 110 lbs is already pushing it.
The sportsman keeps reminding me I only have to do it ONCE.

Not a problem.
Sure thing.
Ha ha

I'll keep you posted.
Of course first things first I have another 5k this Sunday I have to complete.
Then I'll worry about corp challenge.


April 19, 2012

The Sweet Sweet things

I read this recently, and it made me experience many things. Goosebumps. Wetness. Racing heart. Flushed.
Mostly aroused. I really enjoyed it.

Maybe that's why as a young adult I used to read my dads penthouse and playboy magazines . I really enjoyed the stories. How descriptive they were .
They made me envision what it would be like to have those things done to me. To really experience them myself.
So here it is.
Of you. Of me.
Of your lips around my cock;
Of your fingers around it;
Of my hands under the fabric of your panties;
Of my cock disappearing into you;
Of your nipples, hard enough to cut glass;
As you cum
Of our legs tangled in the sheets after.

Wow. Right. Didnt that just make you feel............
Whew .
Ok. So
I realize maybe this is a little much for some of you. I apologize for that.

But h e r e. is where I share it all.

Everything I feel. Everything I think.
Sometimes that might ruffle some feathers.
But i wouldn't be me if I had to put a band aid on some of my parts.


Rock the parkway

Yes, my race is over. So now it's time to share some really horrible photos.

They certainly don't make me look the best. I have no makeup on and I look really tired. Of course my energy level was only working at half capacity .

But whatever. It was a race after all not a beauty contest.
So as promised here they are.
Maybe I should give u a before photo
So you can see I don't normally look this shitty?
What cha think?

I do know that the sportsmanship race photos look alot better than mine. Must be a guy thing.
Cause in one of the photos there is this guy that is practically on top of me ( no I haven't a clue who he is) but he doesn't even look like he's sweating.
What the hell!!!!!

I hope my next race ( the 29th) has a better photo of me.


April 16, 2012

And you say I have to what?

So with my recent issues with blood loss and iron issues it has been brought to my attention that surgery is required.
I'm not thrilled.
I should be. Cause it is supposed to fix all my problems.
But I'm not. I'm scared.
I'm afraid that I will have an allergic reaction
No I'm not being dramatic. It's a very real possibility . Due to my lupus and my allergies to
Every fucking thing.
So next week I go under the knife.
Wish me luck
Cause I will need it
For sure


Race day is over and.....

So I made it. The race is over with. The weather was perfect. You couldn't have asked for a better day.

I was still sick unfortunately. But I ran none the less.

I also had to walk a little which was what I had hoped would not happen.
But I didn't have a choice. My body was in charge not my mind.

Even with the stopping I still made it in 36 minutes. Not bad.
Considering all the hurdles I had to jump just to be cleared to race.
I'm happy with my time.
It felt good to be done with it.
I went home after. Ate then went to the gym to lift. Then when I got home I crashed for 12 hours. I guess I was tired.
As soon as I have some photos I'll be sure to share.


April 13, 2012

Count down baby!!!!

16 hours 32 minutes 42 seconds till my race.
What a roller coaster this last two weeks have been.

Where has it left me?
I'll freakin tell you.
Currently I have a head full of snot.
Yes i said SNOT.
I've taken like 3 shits today.
My stomach is jacked .
It hurts when I cough.
But the trooper I am ( my work friend tells me this) I am going to run tomorrow. Regardless.
It's supposed to rain. It's supposed to be windy.
But I will continue on.
Cause that is what I do.
Ate a shitload of carbs for lunch
. Bagels for dinner. ( at 430pm)
Then early to bed.
I got this.


April 12, 2012

The time is almost HERE

I've been waiting/training for 11 weeks now. For my race to get here. And a week ago, I was on top of the world.
I was feeling freaking awesome. I was running for longer than I ever have.
My muscles were a little sore but I was doing great.
My iron dropped. Then I was going to have to get a blood transfusion or I was not allowed to run .
I was depressed. I know all over a race.
My iron came up enough ( due to eating things like liver and taking iron supplements) and I was cleared to run.
I came down with this freakin cold.
So the week of the race, and I'm now sick.
Might not get to run.
Also it's supposed to rain now. 60 percent chance on race day. What the hell!!!
This week is sooo not how I expected it to go.
I've worked hard. I deserve to run.
My mother says, that maybe I should just skip it and wait till everything aligns better. Right ! Cause all the good runners wait until every thing is Perfect. But she also reminded me that most people don't have my health issues.
Life is
Not fucking
Yes that's childish
But how I feel right now.
I just can't seem to catch a break
Now I'll step down from my pity party.


April 5, 2012

Porn and driving just do not mix

Now I'm not talking about vibrators. Cause I think that is ok. ( you know we've all done that) right :)

I'm talking about watching porno videos.

Why this topic? Today.

Cause I got this email from a guy friend of mine yesterday and it was a video of a girl and two guys.

He thought I might enjoy it.

Which let me just be up front . I am into the whole two guys and a girl thing. What I am NOT into is hard core porn.

Now I'm not sure that was what this video contained. But let's just say it wasn't for me.

There were other videos.
And I found a couple that were for me.
Might I add that my friend was surprised that I did not already look at porn. On a regular basis .

I don't know. I just haven't. Too busy?
Get plenty of the real thing? Pick your excuse. I just don't see it as a everyday thing for me.

Ok .
so where was I????

So I did find a video that looked interesting. On this web site.

So I was checking it out. On my way home. On/off.

Which isn't safe. Yes I was stopped .
But all it did was distract me. While I was driving. And made me super horny.
Enough so that when I got home I tried being playfully with the sportsman but he didn't really seem interested.
Insert extremely disappointed face
So as usual I did the next best thing.
I took care of myself. As usual.
Oh well . I'm
Used to it by now.
But just so you know
In case you ever wondered
Porn and driving is not ok.


April 3, 2012

My chihuahua is one strange bird

So I buy this special food for my little princess chihuahua . I equally buy specific food for my wiener dog.

I put their food in separate places in the house. M's food goes in her bed room. Yes, my dog has her own room.
( long story for another time)
So on/off the wiener R. Comes cruising down the hall, to steel M's food.
I yell at him, "do you think your being sneaky R.? "
" cause I can hear your creaky ass joints ". Seriously . dumbass.
Get on down the damn hall.
Of course R. Is the sportsmans
dog. And he just thinks its freaking funny. The sportsman. Not the dog. Well who knows. Maybe the dog too.
Me. Not so much.
So the other day I put some of R's food out on the floor for my baby M to eat. Only fair right ?
So you know what she does?
She rolls around in it. What the hell?
Who does that? I've never seen a dog roll all over food. Then....... She picked up a piece and flung it thru the air. Then ran over and ate it. Strange ?
I think so. What is wrong with her?
Anyone ever seen this before?


Iron.Iron. Whose got my freakin Iron

I'm so pissed today. About a month ago I went in for ( all kinds of blood test) I was feeling extremely drained and looking pale. Initially I thought it was due to all my working out and training for this upcoming race.
Only to find out my iron levels were so damn low I was going to have to have a blood transfusion . ( not a fucking chance in hell)
So I do my part. I start taking iron pills. I start a multi vitamin. I even start eating iron rich foods.
My energy level was kickin it in high gear. I was kicking ass and taking names. I've gotten up to running 4.4 miles and bench pressing 90lbs.

What happened you ask.
My period happened. In just 2 days. Count them. T w o!!!!! Days I have lost so much damn blood that I can hardly run for 15 minutes. What the fuck.
I have a race in 2 weeks. I don't have time for this shit.
I have doubled up on my iron pills.
But that might not be enough.
So now I have to get my blood tested again ( just love getting stuck with a needle- not!)
So that they can see what my levels are. And what my options are.
Am I supposed to go out and eat a huge hamburger? Or what .
This really sucks ass. I'm telling you.
I look all pale and crappy again. Why me? This is sooooo not fair . Cant I ever just once have something be easy.
I just don't have time to go backwards . Not now.
I attached a photo. That I took a month ago. So you can get an idea of where I'm at. I don't want to loose any of my hard work.

Whose your Daddy?

I will write about this at a later date. Since I have written it 3 damn times . And it keeps losing my shit. So frustrating.
So instead I will write a little short somethin somethin that goes along with the attached photo.
Now not recently but back in the day I have been known to drunk dial guys.
So it's funny to see this one, cause now no one ever picks up the phone and calls . They just text. Which is how someone that you don't even know just might get a certain half naked photo of ...... I'm I don't know a certain someone after having a few too many drinkys.
Sound familiar? Is that YOU??? Come on you can tell me. I promise not to share with anyone. Wink wink.

April 2, 2012

Games people play

So I've never been big on all the games you can add to your phone. There are like a million apps out there. Free and ones that cost. I just never have much additional time for "games". I have my blog. I paint. I run. I'm in the gym. I read books. I dabble in the yard. I have a pinterst page ( go ahead laugh) I text people (alot) Not much free time left. Until, my soccerboy kept talkin about words with friends. So after a couple of weeks I looked it up and added the free version. So here it's been about a month of playing this ( which I became addicted) I am not very good at it. I come up with lame words. So this lady week the soccerboy sees me playing and says" that's so old mom. No one plays words anymore". Well geezum He says everyone is playing this drawing game. Well hell. I like the words game . Then this week my friend at work says , " hey add that draw game sO we can play each other". So I go home and tell the soccerboy that I've added the drawing game and you can guess what he said. " geez mom that game us so old, no one is playing that one anymore. What the fuck!!!! I just added it. Seriously, why the need to move fwd soooo fast. Why the need for something new. On a daily basis? And who decides that's it's old news? Who says " get lets move onto this one". What the hell. I like playing words . So I guess I will just not be hip. Or with the current times. And I'm ok with that. I like to sit and enjoy shit for longer than a half a second. Which I'm sure makes me freakin old. Oh well. So . What game apps do you play? And did you pay for it? Peace

March 29, 2012


So I never. Ok hardly never talk about work . Here. For good reason. Cause once before on my "other" blog ( that some co-workers found out about) I might have mentioned some stuff that a co -worker was about him. It became some big fucking dramatic ordeal. So I just don't . But today, well is different . I'm not saying anyone in particular here did this. And if someone thinks this is about them then you deserve to be called out on it. Yes yes I know get with the fucking storey already. So last week I go to the bathroom twice. ( ha ha I go more than twice in a day) do two damn times I go to take a piss and........ One someone ( no names here) didn't flush the damn toilet. Which totally pisses me off. It's just nasty. And Two their pee is freakin yellow. So the first time it ticks me off . The second time I decide that I need to post a note. For this inconsiderate piece of shit. And it said , " one be courteouse and flush, two If your pee is that yellow um hello you need to be drinking some H2o. Of course I never got a response or heard any gossip about it. But I guess it worked. Know why? I'll tell ya. I haven't had to pre flush since. Awesome huh. So the lesson for the day is... What ? If you don't flush be prepared to be called out on it. Ps really yellow pee is a sign of dehydration . So see I was doing this person a favor. They should give me an award. Right. I know. That's me. Always looking out for my fellow co-worker. Right . Wink wink Peace

March 25, 2012

The Pros and Cons of having a workout partner

I promise I wont talk a lot about working out "here",but right now I'm struggling with working out with the sportsman. Due to the fact that we have different goals. And he is a guy and I'm a women. We just recently changed our workout routine. Every six weeks. We change. So that your body doesn't get used to the workout. Anyways my goal is to lift. To build muscles. To I work work.out. the sportsman's goal. Cardio. Cardio. Cardio. Yes he needs to loose weight. I get that. But I already Run almost 3 miles a day. I don't need any.extra cardio. I know you probably think I'm being fucking petty. but I'm.not. the new routine has a lot of cardio. So the other night on my Way home, I called the sportsman . Asked nicely,if we could Tweek the workout just a bit. Of course he got defensive. For no reason. He got all pissy. Over the phone. For no. damn reason. I had an idea before hand that this is how it might go down. I love having someone to workout with. Someone to help me. But....... I think.there have to be goals. And those need to be somewhat similar. Right? I'm.just so frustrated right now.we are signed up for thing's.several 5k's and the warrior dash. Only 3 weeks till the first 5 k . Why cant we get on.the same page.ive even given him the option(threatened to find someone else) or to find another partner. But he swears he wants to stay with me.any suggestions? Anyone. Peace

March 20, 2012

Rock on!!!!!

Some of you remember me talkin about the out door concert from last year. It's the one in my area that is an all day event. Every May. We go . To watch some damn awesome bands play. There are on an average of 15 different bands that play. Noon till ( well after my bed time) hee hee. So last year was a shit year. Great bands. Suck ass weather. It was such a bad experience. That I don't even want to think about it. My point is I have a ticket for this years concert. It's their 20th anniversary. There are some totally kick ass bands playing. Three of my fav's will be there. 5FDP ( five finger death punch), chevelle . Not to mention other cool bands, Slash, rev theory, theory of a deadman, adelitas way, he'll yeah, up and coming volbeat, black stone cherry, and art of dying. Is that not a damn good line up? So here's the deal, IF the weather is freakin cold. I'm. Not. Going!!!!! I just can't do it again. And listen people by no means am I a pussy. So don't tell me to suck it up. I was there last year. I'm not going thru it agdin and freezing my ass off. Know why? Cause I don't fucking have to. So if I don't go, the sportsman will be selling my ticket. SO all I can say is I'm hoping for a beautiful sunny warm day. Peace

Books: Paper? Real Deal? Or electronic

Sometime before Christmas the sportsman asked me a couple of times if I would be interested in the kindle fire. I just laughed at him. I love" real" deal. The smell. The Turning the pages of a book. Reading in the bathtub .
I belong to a book club. I order books all the time. And I never share or loan out my books.
I'm weird like that. And i have been known to read them more than once.
( due to memory loss issues. I forget what I've read) its all good.
Sooooo, We have alot of books. The kids have books, the sportsman has his books. i have b o o k s .
We have a huge book shelf that is double, triple stacked with books.

So the sportsman aka Big Daddy, bought me a kindle fire for Christmas. I wasn't expecting it. I was super surprised.
And was very resistant to it in the beginning.
Then I checked out some of the cool features.
Now I love it. I don't even need my laptop anymore. This thing does it all.
Well not everything. But all that I need it for.
And it's not expensive. And you don't have to purchase a data package to use it. Sweet!!!
And there is all kinds of free shit. I love f r e e .
Don't you ???
So if you've thought about getting one.
I say it's totally worth it.
Out of all the electronic devices out there it's the cheapest. For sure.
The only draw back is I can't take it in the bath tub with me .
But I suppose since summer is here I won't need to take as many hot baths.
So it's all good.


March 19, 2012

The Outsiders

A few weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night. For whatever reason I couldn't sleep. So I did what most people do.
No not play with myself .
Ha ha I know that's what you thought I was gonna say.
I turned on the tv.
Flipped thru some channels, till I saw the outsiders was on. Now that movie is old. And I haven't seen it in years. It has some great actors in it.
Very interesting story.
Normally I will just set the sleep timer and eventually fall back asleep. Not this time. Don't get me wrong I was tired. But for whatever reason I just could stop watching it.

Have you ever seen it? It's a classic.
At least watching it I finally did fall asleep and I didn't eat any food.
Which is always a possibility if I wake in the middle of the night.
Anyways if you have not seen it
It's a must see.


The Dangers of the Sunny Sunshine

It's not "new" news that I love the summer sun. I love the heat. I love the warmth on my skin. It just makes me feel good all over. I also like to have a little color to my normal pasty ass white skin. Over the years I've had to wear a hat to cover my face, due to the nasty age spots I get. Even with sun screen. It also shouldn't be a surprise that I spend alot of time laying out during the summer. Again, because I like the heat.t body craves it. I've done it for years. Sometimes I lay out naked . Sometimes not. Just depends on how I felt that day. And yes the sportsman is aware of this. Does he have a problem with it? Hmmmm . I don't know. Never asked. So anyways my thought behind this post was, recently we've been having some warmer than usual temps considering its only spring. Which makes me want to break out that bikini and coco tanning oil. Cause your muscles always stand out more with a tan. I'm not talking black. I'm talking a hint of color. So all this got me to thinking. About a friend of mine from HS. Who died last year over the holidays. He died of brain cancer. Now I'm Sure your asking what the hell does that have to do with the sun. Well I'm Gonna tell ya. This friend of mine. He started off with skin cancer on his chest. I can only assume from all his years of running cross country with no shirt on or sun screen. I'm just guessing here. So anyways. He had it removed. Went thru chemo. All was good. THEN, he found out it was back . But this time in his brain. Just freaking sad. From the time he found out it was in his brain till he died was less than a year. He was 41 years old. He left a son behind. It just makes me think . Is it really that important that I have that hint of color this summer? Cause that could easily be ME! Or you! Am I willing to take the risk? Certainly makes me see things differently. Peace

The First of New

This is where the magic will take place. only happy shit here. Where every dogs a wiener. Ha ha A play on words. Here everyone is a winner. CAUSE I'm funny ha ha like that. So make sure you come back for a visit. Peace